ugh.

[holli]

Just got off the phone with my mother, which was a stellar remainder of why I don't have long conversations with my mother. Basically, since my car was totaled when I was rear-ended last week, I'm going to lose like half my savings replacing it-- my parents are chipping in some money, which I do appreciate, but I'm still really freaked out about the financial hit I'm taking. And I'm going to be paying all my own insurance from now on, apparently, which my parents had been doing. So I'm really stressed out and anxious about the money stuff, and when I said as much to my mother she said, a) why wasn't I more concerned about HER feelings, because she was stressed out too, and b) that I was wrong to feel that way and should just pick myself up and tell myself it's not that bad. Which are basically the opposite of useful things to say to me, and when I tried to explain as much she just got more and more upset with me and the conversation went nowhere useful.

And now I'm crying. God damn it.