And then I was walking back to my car and a bunch of people in Captain America t-shirts went past in the other direction, towards the movie theater. Some were carrying plastic shields. I stopped dead and said "Wait, is there an advance screening of Cap 2 tonight?"
And they said "Yeah! Want to come with us? We've got an extra ticket."
SO THAT WAS AWESOME. I am having a lot of feelings about Steve Rogers right now, y'all. A LOT. IT WAS REALLY MAGICAL, for a value of magical that involves huge explosions and terrible things happening to Bucky Barnes.
More tomorrow, when I am more awake. SUCH A GOOD DAY.
(crossposted from tumblr.)
The deadline’s come and gone, and while there are a few pieces I’m still expecting in the next few days, I wanted to let everyone know where we stand, pagecount-wise, and what we still need. In order to be printable, the zines need to have a pagecount that’s a multiple of four, so here’s what we’ve got and what we need to reach that goal:
Chosen Ones (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) is the shortest on content, unfortunately. I’m expecting a few more pages of essay, but right now we only have six pages, with only one piece of fanart. If we don’t get at least ten more pages, I’m going to have to postpone this zine until DC Zinefest in July.
The Avatar Cycle (Avatar: The Last Airbender) is looking a lot better, fortunately! We’re currently at seventeen pages. There’s plenty of art, and a few more things expected, but I could use a few short one-page text pieces to fill gaps as needed.
Concordance (Young Wizards) is currently at eleven pages. We need five more pages of content to have a complete zine. I’m reasonably confident that we can reach that goal.
Infinite Unknowns (Star Trek) is at 22 pages, which means I need to either add two pages or cut two (which I obviously don’t want to do). I do have some more content expected, so I’m not super worried. That said, I would still welcome anything covering TNG or Voyager, as everything I’ve got is for TOS, AOS, or DS9. (If the spirit moves you to make Enterprise fanwork, go for it? I guess?)
I am, at this point, opening up every zine except Infinite Unknowns to previously published content. If you have meta, fic or fanart that you think would be a good fit, feel free to send it along.
The zines have to go to the printer by April 16, but any content I receive before then can still make it in. If you think you can get something done by then, please let me know!
If anyone is willing to write even 250 words of meta or fic for Buffy, AtLA, Young Wizards or Star Trek, it would be a huge help. Things like lists, craft instructions, fanmixes, and other miscellanea are also welcome. There's a 1000-word max, so this does not have to be long. I just need more than I've got to make these zines happen.
Signal boosting much appreciated, if you know anyone in any of those four fandoms. Thanks, y'all.
Should note: they have read Smile and Drama, they have read Bone, they REALLY like superheroes. All the comics I would like to recommend are older than they are, out of print, or both-- Young Justice, 90s Superboy, Impulse-- and I don't really have my finger on the pulse of current comics anymore.
So I emailed the folks who handle booking for St. Stephen in Mount Pleasant last night, because we're already pretty much at the limit for what we can fit at the vintage shop, and we haven't even, like, made fliers yet. I think it's a pretty ideal space-- we can fit close to a hundred attendees, plus have a small vendor area, and we can actually afford to book it. That does mean we can't hold it on the planned Sunday, because church, but moving it back a day shouldn't be a problem.
I am super glad there is so much interest, but also kind of terrified because I have never run an event on this scale before. SO MANY CATS TO HERD.
And I was reading along, and nodding along in agreement, and a strange thought popped into my head. I thought, out of nowhere, Thank God I'm Jewish, and thank God I grew up a reader. And after I had that thought, I had to sit there and pick it apart for a minute, because on the face of it that was a weird thought to have.
But this is what I meant: I was lucky to grow up in privileged circumstances. Some people who grow up privileged have a hard time with empathy, because there's no cost to them for lacking it. I'm lucky because my circumstances were such that I learned empathy early, and it stuck. Which is not to say that I am without prejudice, that I am not the product of a biased and broken society. But I was given opportunities to understand that people who are different from me are still people with as much humanity as me.
I grew up with the knowledge that my family came to privilege later than some, that people with my name and my genes and my tendency to freckle were treated as lesser because of traits they had no control over. I grew up with stories about the monstrousness that results when empathy is eroded, when people are taught not to feel for those outside their particular tribe.
I was a weird, lonely kid whose closest ties were to fictional people, who made friends with difficulty. If I'd had the wrong role models-- if I'd been fed the wrong narratives-- it would have been frighteningly easy for me to grow up without empathy, or with less of it. But I was lucky.
It sounds silly, but it matters that I grew up with Matilda Wormwood, who believed in using her gifts to seek justice; that I grew up with Meg Murry, whose greatest strength was her ability to love. I grew up with Sara Crewe, who knew that all girls are princesses, every one of them; I grew up with Mary Lennox, who didn't learn that she was worth loving until she learned how to love others.
I am so, so lucky to have had the role models and circumstances and stories that I have had. I am trying really hard to feel pity for the people responsible for Jordan Davis' death and the miscarriage of justice that followed, instead of hate. I am trying really hard to empathize. Empathizing with Jordan and his family is easy, for me: I have been blessed with a set of eyes that don't have to work to perceive their humanity and goodness.
For me, in my circumstances, it is easy to empathize with people who have the cards stacked against them, for whom the very structure of our society has been built to exclude and diminish. Empathizing with those who our culture has taught all the wrong lessons, who are blinkered by prejudice, who do monstrous things with no expectation of censure because they don't see their victims as people: that's really hard. I'm not very good at it yet.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. Jordan's story is not about me or my feelings, even a little bit. If you haven't read the article yet, please do that now, because it has a lot more important things to say than I do.
Just-- I had that moment, that moment of Thank God I know enough to be on the right side in this, and I was surprised by what I found when I looked closer at it. I am lucky. My eyes are open. I hope that doesn't come across as self-congratulatory. But I do feel this way, about all of us who struggle against the brokenness in our culture, against the pervasive narratives which tell us that some people are fundamentally worth less than others. We have been given a gift.
I don't envy the people living without it.
Also, if you have any ideas for outfits, I'd love to hear 'em! We're going to do a mix of 'street style' outfits that incorporate geeky t-shirts and prints, casual cosplay (so, dressed-down version of iconic costumes), steampunk-inspired looks, and if we can find people to sew them, some dresses sewn from vintage patterns and made from geeky prints. Right now I have a list in a gdoc that reads:
--RIOT GRRL LUNA AND 70s PUNK BELLATRIX
--lady holmes and watson, but the victorian versions probably?
--marion ravenwood, pending appropriate blouse
--some classic who companions
--alternate era versions of costumes: steampunk star wars, 1920s superheroes, etc (Buffy as interpreted by 1950s Archie Comics y/n?)
--LATE 30s LOIS LANE
If you have additional suggestions for this list, they would be very welcome.